The Rambling Addict

Dear diary,

I’m finally thinking about going to school — if only to give me something to do. I mean, why not? I’m a smart person, so I should apply myself, right?!  Things have been looking up. This state isn’t seeming so bad. Especially since I have met my soul sister. She is freaking amazing and I feel so lucky to have a budding best friendship. Who knew those could still happen! Ha! I can’t wait for My Prince to get home from work; looks like it will be another five weeks, if not longer. Boo. 


Marry your best friend. I do not say that lightly. Really, truly find the strongest, happiest friendship in the person you fall in love with. Someone who speaks highly of you. Someone you can laugh with. The kind of laughs that make your belly ache, and your nose snort. The embarrassing, earnest, healing kind of laughs. Wit is important. Life is too short not to love someone who lets you be a fool with them. Make sure they are somebody who lets you cry, too. Despair will come. Find someone that you want to be there with you through those times. Most importantly, marry the one that makes passion, love, and madness combine and course through you. A love that will never dilute - even when the waters get deep, and dark.

— N’tima


Dear diary,

I have an amazing boyfriend. How did I get so lucky? He makes the hard times disappear and everything is okay again, even if it’s just for the moment. I hate that he has to travel for work. I love him so much. He is an amazing, caring, patient man. I could spend my whole life trying to equal what he does for me and it wouldn’t ever he enough.


Dear diary,

I fucking hate feeling like this. I don’t understand where it’s coming from, or why. I’ve always been a mostly happy person, and it seems like recently all I feel is shitty. I just don’t get it. Why the fuuuuuck?? I want it to go away.